Okay, so I did something yesterday that I’m sort of glad I did and sort of terrified that I did. I have been working on a picture book (what seems to me a very marketable, quirky, funny idea) that I just can’t quite get to where it needs to be. It has some really funny parts. And then it has some parts that would be dependent on outlandish illustrations to support blah words.
And so, it’s been through my crit group. A much older version has been tamarak -ed. I’ve changed it up, tried different povs. It’s getting closer. But still, just not quite there. It hasn’t changed significantly enough since its last version to have it critted again by the wonderful ducks. SO, yesterday afternoon, after having wild back and forth –it’s great, it’s not so great –emotional swings, I decided to send it to my agent and see what she thinks. I mean, she sees tons of picture book manuscripts a year. She knows what works and what doesn’t. Maybe it will spur some idea from her that will spur some idea from me that will make it work.
But still, I can’t help but think that she’s going to read it and go, “what?” “I signed this writer?” “She thinks this idea has hope of going anywhere?” It’s a step of trust in her for me to send her something that I wouldn’t have thought was ready to send to an editor. I mean, she’s helped me revise before, but only after she helped me see what wasn’t ready in something that I thought was ready. And I don’t think this is ready.
So wouldn’t it be really funny if she came back and said, “This is perfect!”? But she won’t, because it’s not. I’m simply hoping that her expert eyes will see something of value in the idea and can help me head in the direction with it that I need to.